With certainty, we forged ahead one day at a time. She became pregnant and we were fortunate enough to be asked to adopt this precious baby and save him from the generational poverty his birth-mother had lived in for so long. But, we didn't want to just save Joshua we wanted to see his birth-mother whole, healed and able to care for the three children which would remain with her.
Life would have been easier if we would have adopted Joshua and walked away, but God didn't call us to be comfortable He called us to serve Him which meant we would continue to walk with her. We were obedient, we followed and trusted God every step of the way. I can't recall the number of times we stepped in and helped our birth-mother...it doesn't really matter, suffice it to say, we have been the one constant in her life for a long time even though she has many natural supports which should be surrounding her. Unfortunately, she comes from a long line of generational poverty, she is a victim of her circumstances every single day. She can't see the forest for the trees, the beautiful ocean beyond the puddle. She lives in the mud every day of her life and we have learned she likes it there, in the mess, not because she can't get out of the mess, but because she doesn't desire to get out of it.
“It would seem that Our Lord finds our desires not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased.” C.S Lewis
Two and half weeks ago we brought her two youngest children into our home....she had a plan. She was going to have stable housing AND transportation within the next month. She desired to have the boys with her again as soon as she was situated and stable. It looked like that would happen, instead last week I received a frantic phone call saying she was losing everything, basically. She was taking her oldest child out of school to live in another city with a relative. Once again, her mess would continue, despite my naive idea she would really come through with that plan. Remember this has been four years of highs and lows, mostly lows with this 25 year old girl.
